Yesterday I noticed something

Something I'd say it's unfair, but at the same time makes me happy

As I think everyone knows already I'm posting my drawings mainly in a different account, called MentalCrash, Angeldhan is right now just a place to put some of the stuff that doesn't fit the topic of my other account, the thing is, most of my drawings are related to the content I submit there, hence why this place feels abandoned

So ehrm, yeah, back on topic

I've been in deviantart for quite a while now, and well, as I think everyone has, I had this group of people I'd watch, looking up to them, "Wow, they draw so good", "Wow, they have so many pageviews".

Thing is, since I started doing TG in MentalCrash almost two years ago, I stopped caring about those things and just dedicated to work into something I liked

Though I can honestly say I've seen a fair improvement in my skills, I haven't really gotten THAT far, I mean, now that I look at all those famous people in my watch list here in this account most of them are still far better than I, because of course time doesn't stops and people will keep on practicing.

The thing is, I'am more famous than then now, since I happened to land in a small community with a small number of active artists, so my number of pageviews skyrocketed and my number of watchers is in a constant steady growth as long as I keep on drawing

Here in Angeldhan it took me almost 4 years to get to the 33,333 pageviews, a goal I got in Mentalcrash in 2 months. And all that happened almost two years ago, Mentalcrash has already gotten to 350,000, and that (considering the following paragraph) is quite an achievement.

Eventually I abandoned both accounts due to force majeure, then came back four months ago, As I look over Angeldhan I see it abandoned and dead, with a couple of recycled drawings laying here and there but nothing really dedicated to this account.

And as I look at the inbox filled with pictures of the people I watch I feel both happy and sad, since I've actually managed to make a name in deviantart but many people more tallented than I hasn't got much attention since they don't draw for the TG, AR or any of the small communities.

There is nothing I can do though, I'm using deviantart basically as my base gallery at the moment, gathering fans and working in comics, I'm seeking to eventually get bigger artworks done and maybe even a constant income off them. The thing is, I enjoy drawing it, I see all this people drawing fan art and things they enjoy like landscapes, monsters and fractal based figures, yet they'll never a recognized on it because there are already thousands of people on it.

So, to end this journal, things will just keep going just the same for both of my accounts, but I think I might have to clean some of the watchers list here, I get dozens of pictures on the inbox every time I open this account, but I don't really care about any of them anymore

Au Revoir